Sulli - From top star to 'national stepchild', ended her own life at the age of 25

On October 14, 2019, the Asian entertainment industry was shocked with the news that Sulli hanged herself at the age of 25. Fans regretted that the beautiful "pear snow flower" could not be strong, resilient and overflowing. full of life again.

Sulli was born in 1994 in a family of 5 members, including parents, two older brothers and her. However, Sulli's family home soon fell apart when her parents divorced. After that, her mother remarried and brought the female idol to Seoul to live with her stepfather. That year, she was in 4th grade.

Possessing a lovely appearance and lively personality, little Sulli was brought by her mother to train at an acting academy right after moving to the magnificent capital. From here, the life away from home, without the warmth of parents and eating on the set where Sulli grew up began.

On November 6, 2005, Sulli officially debuted all SM artists. But the 11-year-old g.irl's path into the entertainment industry was not strewn with flowers as the audience thought. Instead, leaving behind every heel of the g.irl born in 1994 are only tears, fear and loneliness.

Few people know that Sulli was once a victim of school v.iolence. After becoming famous for her children's roles on the screen, she was constantly bullied and scolded by her classmates at elementary school. Some older students even drowned Sulli's head in the water until she suffocated.

At the moment she was submerged in the water, the singer thought she was going to die. She is not dead, but carries with her a lasting obsession.

Being bullied at school made Sulli timid with everything around. She stopped acting because she was afraid of being bullied further. She can't touch water for a long time, if she has to do personal hygiene, she will just dip her hands in the water and then stroke her face.

Many online viewers questioned where Sulli's parents were when their daughter went through such psychological obsessions. But with the move to the company dormitory to live alone since the age of 10, the female idol has almost no time to be with her family, not enjoying the love, protection and warmth of her parents. Therefore, she became closed, difficult to express her feelings to outsiders is not difficult to understand.

Sulli's real name is Choi Jin Ri, the name means "truth". She once revealed that many people advised against using her real name to work in the entertainment industry.

Then a journalist suggested that she adopt the stage name Sulli - which means pear snow flower. This person said that the 15-year-old g.irl that year had a beautiful and pure appearance like this flower.

In the documentary footage recording the group's practice before the K-pop "launch", the public caught a 15-year-old Sulli dancing to the vibrant music while sobbing. When asked why she didn't stop to wipe her tears, she shook her head in denial for fear that even stopping for one minute would not keep up with the other members' level.

At the age of 15, Sulli has always lived in such fear, afraid of not being as good as the other members, afraid of not staying in the group, afraid that not doing well on stage will make f(x) criticized...

In 2014, after 5 years of working with f(x), Sulli announced that she had stopped singing because of a psychological disorder. At that time, she had to face a series of negative rumors such as smugness, arrogance, laziness on stage or even pregnancy and abortion.

The rumors emerged after the female idol was caught having dinner with rapper Choiza - who is 14 years older than her. Sulli does not hide that she has feelings for her senior. She is often seen walking with Choiza in the morning and evening.

In the Korean entertainment industry, dating is a crime, and dating a man up to 14 years older like Sulli would be a felony. She suffered the heaviest slurs, especially after announcing her hiatus for psychological treatment. It is claimed that she stopped working for love and enjoyment.

Looking back later, Sulli still smiled and affirmed that it was a very happy time when she lived. Happy to be yourself. She was given the responsibility and heavy pressure of being an entertainer for the public, loved a man who could protect her, and was free to pursue the simple life she always wanted.

During a live chat with fans in 2018, she came across a comment line calling her "stupid". Sulli was silent for a long time, then she asked, "Why are you suddenly saying I'm stupid?".

The whole incident was recorded by the camera of the program Jin Ri Market. In the end, Sulli just shrugged her shoulders and concluded, "Yeah, I'm a really stupid person."

Fans have repeatedly questioned where the female singer got so much strength to face all the hate netizens and public opinion has given her over the past 10 years.

"I was taught how to reduce my personal feelings to make myself stronger. I don't want to live too strong, but who else can I rely on?", Sulli once said.

The moment she gave up on life, fans began to search through the videos she once confided, the photos she shared and began to reflect.

Many people feel sad when they realize how long Sulli has faced with loneliness and suffering. The manager - who discovered Sulli's b.ody - said that she suffered from severe depression. Maybe not just in the last few years, but maybe it started from the days of being pushed into the water tank in elementary school.

At the beginning of the MV "Goblin" - a solo product released in July - Sulli had a worrying monologue. She talks about a g.irl suffering from multiple personality disorder, with 3 distinct personalities.

"One day, they appeared out of nowhere. Was it stress, or something else? I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if 'they' really are 'me'? So Who am I? Am I doing something wrong? I just want to end it. That's a problem I've been thinking about."

All the words and thoughts Sulli has ever expressed are like pleas for help to the relatives around her. But no one seems to notice. Her brother - who was closest to her - was also just subtle enough to notice her sister's physical changes.

"Every time we see her, her waist gets smaller. She's already this thin," her brother shared with the production crew Jin Ri Market.

Jin Ri Market is originally a TV show produced with the aim of changing the views of those who have a grudge against Sulli. But in the end, the former f(x) member was still "stoned", hated and always in loneliness. "I was abandoned by everyone, even those closest to me."

Sulli has never experienced more than she did during the filming of Jin Ri Market. Each of her words seemed to cut into the hearts of fans: "I told them I was exhausted. But, no one listened to me", "I feel very sad when people always use their eyes. harsh and different to see themselves", "Please love me a little more".

In 2017, when Kim Jong Hyun committed s.uicide due to depression, the Korean public constantly reminded the management company to take care of Taeyeon (SNSD) carefully, because she was also depressed and very close to the late male singer.

On October 14, a Vietnamese fan wrote on her personal page the sad words: "After Kim Jong Hyun, people told each other to pay attention to Taeyeon, but no one remembers Sulli".

Sulli also faces a depression for many years, is also lonely in her own aura and also needs a helping hand.

In return for all her pain and despair, only the indifference of the Korean public and netizens. People are still busy searching for the phrases "Sulli deletes photos", "Sulli exposes goods", "Sulli is free", "Sulli Choiza"...

And then, the passing of the beautiful snow-pear flower once again sounded the alarm about depression or the loneliness of stars carrying the responsibility of pleasing public opinion. Fans have given up hope to the point of despair that it's all just a "pear snowflake" joke... But there's no joke here.

Sulli made fans deeply moved again with the last movie of her life, r.evealing hidden corners for the first time Mộc Trà13:32:21 14/11/2023Through an interview 4 years ago, fans couldn't help but feel sad when they heard the female idol's confession and the mental illness she experienced during her lifetime. Notably, the former f(x) member also mentioned that she was stoned