Kim Jong Hyun: From bowing in apology for the crime of "love" to committing suicide due to pressure, the dark corner behind the light

It's been 5 years since Kim Jong Hyun's departure, fans have never stopped feeling heartbroken when it comes to the pressures and pains that the talented male singer had to endure behind his bright smile and bright light. aura of a top star in the entertainment industry.

Kim Jong Hyun is better known by his stage name Jonghyun. He is a talented Korean singer and songwriter and a member of the group SHINee. Possessing a talent for singing and composing, he has attracted and has been the focus of many young people around the world since his debut. After many years of operation, Kim Jonghyun quickly became the most popular star in the Korean entertainment industry at that time.

In 2005, Jonghyun was discovered by SM staff at an outdoor concert with his band. According to the staff at that time, instead of going to school, Jonghyun always stayed at SM headquarters to study and practice skills. It would not be an exaggeration to say that SHINee's success is due in no small part to Jonghyun's talent. While taking on the main vocal role thanks to his strong, powerful and emotional voice, the male idol is also known as a talented songwriter. He is the one who wrote the song "Juliette" - one of SHINee's most successful songs.

In October 2010, Jonghyun was leaked by the media with a dating photo with actress Shin Se Kyung. The news was released and was met with strong protests. Especially a large part of Jonghyun's fans pulled together to "terrorize" Shin Se Kyung's personal page and asked her to break up with her boyfriend. When SHINee appeared on stage to perform, Jonghyun didn't even receive the usual cheers from the fans.

Before the great pressure of the public, at the end of the performance, Jonghyun bowed at a 90-degree angle three times to apologize to the fans for "sin" of loving Shin Se Kyung. This love then had to come to a sad end in June 2011. Since then, Jonghyun has never been involved in another love scandal. Until Jonghyun, fans still remembered Jonghyun's bow of apology for "love" and couldn't help but be heartbroken.

Remember, just a few days before coming to a negative decision, Jonghyun was still busy with preparations for the latest studio album including cover photography and MV filming. However, in one afternoon, Jonghyun was forever gone, leaving everyone in the hearts of everyone the infinite mourning for a talented artist who possessed a bright smile but could not overcome the pressure. of this life.

Accordingly, on the afternoon of December 18, the entertainment industry throughout Asia in general and the Kpop fan community in particular were shocked by the news of Jonghyun's suicide. Before that, he sent the last message to his biological sister, but when the authorities arrived at the scene, the male idol stopped breathing. Jonghyun eventually died in the hospital.

It is known that before leaving, Jonghyun rented an apartment in Cheongdamdong, Gangnam District, for two days. He checked-in at 12:00 noon (KST) December 18, 2017. Later that day, at 4:42 pm, Jonghyun's older sister, Kim So Dam, was the first to call. to emergency responders, saying that she believes her brother is contemplating suicide. He sent her several KakaoTalk messages reminding her of "one last goodbye" and "let's say I did well".

Police and lifeguards discovered Jonghyun unconscious in the apartment around 6:10pm. He was immediately taken to Konkuk University Hospital in a state of cardiac arrest. Received emergency CPR treatment, however, he did not regain consciousness and was pronounced dead at the hospital around 6:32 pm on December 18, at the age of 27.

Investigators believe he died from inhaling toxic fumes or fumes, as they discovered burning coals on the pan when they arrived at the apartment. The police announced that they would not conduct an autopsy at the request of Jong Hyun's family, and stated his death could have been a suicide.

Kim Jonghyun has dreamed of shining on stage since he was a child. However, in his suicide note, he wrote: "This famous life is never where I belong. Because I'm famous. Why did I choose this path? How ridiculous? It's a miracle I've lasted for so long."

Jonghyun's suicide letter once shocked the Korean entertainment industry, word for word, the public could feel the pain and hidden corners behind the aura of a top star.

Jonghyun wrote, "Deep down in me there is only pain. Depression has gnawed and swallowed me up, making me unable to get over it.

I hate myself. I tried to hold on to the good memories and held on to myself in vain. I feel this life is full of suffocating and secretive. I wonder who can be responsible or shoulder the pain? no one else, no one but myself. The feeling of loneliness has always come to me on a regular basis. Saying the ending is easy, but doing something to actually end it is really hard.

My life is full of difficulties, I want to run away from everything, even I want to run away from myself. I'm always alone, I'm really lonely. I understand that loneliness comes to me because of my personality. So, I'm out of this mess, it's definitely my fault. I used to wish people would pay more attention to me, but what I got in return was hopeless.

I don't know, I'm so tired of fighting with life, with this world. I want when I leave, people will always remember me as a hard worker. I worked very, very hard. If you can't smile when I'm gone, please don't blame me. I worked really hard. Goodbye".

5 years have passed, every year on December 18, the public and interested people come together to remember male singer Kim Jong Hyun. When the male singer left, fans began to notice that Jonghyun had a bad childhood when on a TV show, the male singer had tearful comments about his childhood. Jong Hyun said, "Stop asking me to tell you about my childhood memories. I don't have any memories in me."

His music is always full of creativity, enthusiasm, and so Jong Hyun passed away when his love of music was unfinished, but his dream was realized by his efforts, constant exploration, learn. However, in the end, because he could not overcome his fatigue, the talented male idol of kimchi gave himself up to death. He left leaving regret for fans, family and the whole Asian entertainment industry.